Involuntary movements during contemplative practices
Hey everyone, I need your input.
Seated meditative practice became incredibly challenging in the first half of this year when I started experiencing strong involuntary movements during my sessions. The movements started when I was experimenting with ajna and vishuddha breathwork, which was before I became interested in Dr. Sthaneshwar's content around June. The movements are rocking, swirling and jittering. A lot of times my body becomes very upright and lifts my face upwards. Meditation has always been challenging because of my lower back problems, but the disruptive movements are what discouraged me from exploring meditative practices and the Sarvamanya path, as it's impossible to stay focused. What are your thoughts as to what's going on and as to whether this can be resolved? I wanted to note that the involuntary movements also happen at other times, like for example when I'm doing somatic processing work, which is contemplative in nature. If I lay on the ground and go into my body, my body starts to spaz (if I allow it to). If you were spectating, you would think I was possessed or having a seizure. I'm not initiated, but I'm desperate for answers as I yearn to continue on this path.
Hi Ricardo,
Thank you for posting this. I have not yet received dīkṣā either, and I have also been experiencing strong involuntary movements, so I was very interested to read about your experience.
In my case, they have continued for about two and a half years. They began with movements such as rocking, swirling, and trembling, and have also included spontaneous breathing, vocal sounds, movements of the tongue, gestures resembling worship, and movements in which my hands trace geometric forms.
These movements occur during almost the entire time that I am awake, rather than only during meditation. I can suppress them briefly, but not for several tens of minutes, so seated practice, intentional breathing exercises, and visualization are difficult for me.
I hope that someone with experience in this tradition can help us understand these involuntary processes and how people in this condition can proceed with practice.
I would also be grateful if anyone could tell us whether, after receiving dīkṣā, it would be possible to receive personal guidance from Acharyaji regarding such a process.